Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and your right hand delivers me. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. Psalm 138:7-8Somehow today sneaked up on me like a burglar in the night, ready to steal my joy and leave sorrow in it's place. In the past, I have actively prepared my heart for days like today and asked my friends to pray for me throughout the day. Today was different. The busyness of life overtook me, not allowing me even a moment to think about what was to come. But despite my unpreparedness, God was faithful to walk beside me as I faced my day and fill me with His peace that surpassed all understanding. Despite the difficulties of today, God gave me the grace to see that all those involved care deeply for me and my son and want the very best for him. More importantly, God was kind to remind me of His steadfast love for Wesley and His perfect plan for Wesley's life.
Today was Wesley's annual IFSP meeting with Early Intervention. As a mother, this is the day when I am faced with how vast my son's delays seem when they are written out on paper. I cannot even begin to express how heart breaking it is to read evaluation after evaluation and see numbers like 50% delay alongside age equivalent calculations. The areas in need of growth seem eternally long in comparison to the lists of accomplishments and successes. And then it hits me again that this is my boy, my baby, my most precious child, who is being discussed and written about.
Oh how I long for the day when Wesley will meet His Savior face to face, and the evaluation of him in God's book will be - "Created in My image, saved by My Son, loved forever, given a new and perfect body with which to worship Me forever in fullness of joy".
As I wait for that day, I am grateful to be reminded of Philippians 4:8, which says "Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."
So today I will fight to believe what is true and lovely. God has blessed us with a wonderful son, and Wesley will meet all the milestones that God has ordained for him in God's perfect timing for his life. God will fulfill His purpose for Wesley. He will not forsake Wesley, the precious work of His hands.
3 comments:
My heart goes out to you because it is tough to sit there and listen to those stats, see everything on paper, and have others talk about YOUR CHILD as just another case. So so incredibly hard as a mom...but you know Wesley as a little boy and not a number and you know him as the perfect individual that God created. And, as you already know, God does not make mistakes. I will pray for you and your family as you finish up with all that goes with the yearly IFSP meetings and paperwork, and that God will provide all Wesley needs to maximize his development.
So sorry this hard day snuck up on you. But I love your perspective on the future evaluation to look forward to in heaven.
ahh honey, sending hugs and just love your faith in this! he is wonderful and there is so much wonderful to see and yet the hard days can punch the wind out of you! i know!!! love and hugs again, you are an awesome mummy xxx
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